So as I mark two years since my cancer diagnosis, unlike last year, we really don’t have any plans. I’m not sure how that happened. I mentioned my desire to make a trip to New York City a tradition, but was met with some resistance from my mom and That Guy. We were all there recently for That Little Girl’s birthday and it does make for a long day. So I asked That Guy to plan something nice for the two of us to do for a day since it wouldn’t take up anyone else’s time. We were met with a lack of child care. So then I decided to just get outside and plant some of my flowers. Maybe even read in the sun when I took a break. And just like the last few weekends we are expecting rainy dreary weather. Or maybe I should just blog all day? Be selfish with my time and do all those things I enjoy but don’t have the time to do. Gardening is one of those, reading another, a long walk, blogging, knitting, printing photos for My Girls Disney albums (someday I can blog about that amazing trip), and dividing up a year’s worth of school, dance, family, and soccer pictures. Let’s be honest though, I would just end up holed up in our room watching Bravo.
So I’m left with nothing to keep me busy and help me try to turn my frown upside down. I am left with a lot of time to ponder.
Right now I’m stuck on if this two years means anything. For example, I get anxious when iI feel a twinge in my affected breast. When will I stop being so jumpy? Yes, its happening on and off. Yes, i’ve told several doctors. Yes, it’s fine. But still. There is the five years everyone talks about. I mean, five years is not a guarantee but it’s a milestone. When does that clock start exactly? At diagnosis? At the end of treatment? At surgery when it was confirmed dead? When chemo killed that final last cell?
I need answers!
And I really needed a day to not spend thinking about it all. Off to make the best of the weekend!
I have wondered too about when the five year clock starts ticking. I just noted the two year date from my surgery in April – and continue to be surprised at how much I think about it all, and how much I don’t think about it all. You, me, and 3 million others walking this path.
May your health continue to flourish.
xo iris
p.s. I finally figured out how to navigate the Reader page today, and glad to find your site – looking forward to reading more.
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That’s exactly it, when you say how much yet not at all. Will be checking out your site soon! Thank you for commenting! Be well!
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Two years!! Awesome! It sounds like you were triple negative? I was diagnosed in August with triple negative and asked when the time started ticking. My oncologist said after treatment. So I’m guessing my time starts in mid December. I sure don’t want to wish ANY time away but I’m looking forward to the 2 year mark myself…and then the 3 year mark and hopefully finally the 5 year mark. I had neo adjuvant treatment so I wonder if that changes the timeline up some. Congratulations on your 2 years!
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